I really should take a prolonged break from my current life

I am pretty open that I don't like how my life has gone. A big part of my problem is that I have been living my life as someone less than who I really want to be. This has led me to live a deceptively stressful lifestyle.

The longer my current lifestyle persists, the more I struggle with internal conflicts. There is a part of me that desperately wants some time away from this lifestyle. More than ever, I feel like I need to take a break from living a lifestyle that has caused me significant harm. Quite frankly, even a month or two is insufficient at this point. I would love to take a whole year off.

Taking a year off would be tricky. The most obvious issue is financial. I need a revenue stream to survive. There are other issues. If I spend time away from my current life and the person that I have been, who would I live as?

I have long insisted that I believe in evolving as an individual. Years ago, this had me thinking about how I could benefit from a year of change. The idea behind this is that I feel like I need some change in life. There are numerous obstacles to change. Among them is that change typically comes with the kind of attention that I personally struggle with. Simply put, I can't handle people making a huge deal out of everything I do out of the ordinary.

If I pushed really hard, individual changes within the year might actually be a little easier. This is because it would be more difficult for people to single out individual changes, which might make it easier to handle the attention for each individual change. The obvious drawback is that that I would face more of this attention overall.

I don't want to go into too much detail at this time about how a year of change would work. I have already tried to explain the concept for My Idea Outlet. What I will say is that the types of change would likely include correcting past mistakes and looking for ways to improve myself.

This has led me to create a new series of posts. What kinds of changes would I like to make in life? I don't want to restrict myself to the concept of a year of change. Instead, I have decided to engage in a new self-evaluation project by completing a sentence in different ways.

• I really should take a prolonged break from my current life.
• I really should correct some of my past mistakes.
• I really should try to evolve as an individual.
• I really should try to become a better person.
• I really should...

The list will continue in future posts, and I will try not to make them this broad.